In case you can't tell, I've rounded the corner into my third trimester and have sllooooooowwwwwed down. I won't be writing much between now and May. I won't be doing anything much between now and May, except for taking care of the kids and keeping the house reasonably functioning. I wanted to pop in here today, though, to give an update on how I'm doing with my new year's goals.
1. Focus on Scott
We've taken to walking the 1 1/2 mile loop through the desert by our neighborhood when Scott gets off work in the evenings. Throughout our marriage, we've done a lot of evening walking. It's always been a good time for us to connect, talk through our day, and process whatever's going on in our lives at that moment. So the walks have helped to keep us connected. We've laughed a lot this month. I mean, laughing so hard it brings on contractions and makes me pee my pants just a little bit. I really did marry my best friend.
2. Focus on the Kids
Homeschool has gone completely out the window for now. And I don't feel the least bit guilty about it. This month I have made an effort to connect with the kids on their level. It does take an effort to engage with them when I'm tired, grumpy, and just want to be alone, and Sophie's rambling on about Spiderman while Xander bumps continually against my leg. I figure as long as I'm consciously making an effort, it's enough for now.
3. Focus on the House
Scott and I put in a new back door (the old one was original to the house, deeply scratched by some former tenant's dog, and plain ugly), painted the living room, put in new blinds in the living room, and purchased and painted new bi fold doors to go in between the living room and TV room. We still have a long list of things we want to accomplish before Baby comes, but we made a good dent in it this month.
4. Focus on the Whole.
Ok. Confession time. So I know I'm pregnant, and shouldn't worry about it, but I've been obsessing about my weight. I was BOUND AND DETERMINED at the beginning of this pregnancy to gain only 20 - 25 lbs. I exercised every day. I ate well. I did not indulge most of my cravings. And at the moment, I am up to 30 lbs. With three months to go. I have come to the conclusion that I will gain around 50 lbs, it's just what my body does. I gained that much (and more) with my two other pregnancies. My mom gained that much with all four of hers.
So who cares what the doctors say. I really think my body knows what it wants to do, and is going to do it regardless of what I eat, how much I eat, and how much I exercise. So right now, I'm focusing on putting healthy foods into my body and continuing to walk 1 to 1.5 miles every morning (and often the same in the evenings, with Scott and the kids), and will disregard what the scale says.
I have to say, as well, since I'm in confession mode, that it's getting hard for me to look in the mirror because the mental image of myself doesn't match what I see now. But I'm trying to love my body, and enjoy my pregnant shape, and remember what a blessing from God this baby is.