It came to me suddenly, and will not let me go. It's an idea. A story idea, to be specific. The plot and characters are blooming in my mind, taking up permanent residence, demanding to be given a voice.
And I'm scared. Terrified, really. I'm scared that:
- I won't be able to do it
- I'll get half way through the book, and get stuck, and won't be able to finish
- I'll write trivial crap that nobody wants to read
- That I'll be exposed and ashamed
- I won't be able to flesh the characters out correctly
- I have no idea how to go about getting published
- Who would want to publish me, anyway?
- And where, in my packed day, will I find the time?
The entire process frightens me. I think, really, because as long as I have known how to put words on paper, I have wanted to write a book. I used to write and publish my own little books as a kid. I had a whole series about Annie the Ant. So this dream of writing a book is my oldest and dearest aspiration. A lifetime of longings can stack up pretty high, and weigh mighty heavy. Held up against that, the fear of failure is near overwhelming.
Have you looked into publishing on kindle? I know there was some hullabaloo about how anyone could put anything on it.
ReplyDeleteNot that yours would be just anything. I think the instance was regarding inaapropriate material, but it as saying that anyone could publish.
ReplyDeleteDon't let your fears stop you!!!!! Remember that you'll never know unless you try:)
ReplyDeleteOh, and Codex huh? I had to look her up but wow - thanks for the compliment LOL!