Friday, August 26, 2011

Fear of Failure

It came to me suddenly, and will not let me go.  It's an idea.  A story idea, to be specific.  The plot and characters are blooming in my mind, taking up permanent residence, demanding to be given a voice. 

And I'm scared.  Terrified, really.  I'm scared that:
  • I won't be able to do it
  • I'll get half way through the book, and get stuck, and won't be able to finish
  • I'll write trivial crap that nobody wants to read
  • That I'll be exposed and ashamed
  • I won't be able to flesh the characters out correctly
  • I have no idea how to go about getting published
  • Who would want to publish me, anyway?
  • And where, in my packed day, will I find the time? 
The entire process frightens me.  I think, really, because as long as I have known how to put words on paper, I have wanted to write a book.  I used to write and publish my own little books as a kid.  I had a whole series about Annie the Ant.  So this dream of writing a book is my oldest and dearest aspiration.  A lifetime of longings can stack up pretty high, and weigh mighty heavy.  Held up against that, the fear of failure is near overwhelming. 


  1. Have you looked into publishing on kindle? I know there was some hullabaloo about how anyone could put anything on it.

  2. Not that yours would be just anything. I think the instance was regarding inaapropriate material, but it as saying that anyone could publish.

  3. Don't let your fears stop you!!!!! Remember that you'll never know unless you try:)

    Oh, and Codex huh? I had to look her up but wow - thanks for the compliment LOL!